Jan-2016
Positive awareness [Mindset]
Picture by Thom Mattsson
Today I woke up, had my breakfast with my boyfriend and in the afternoon we decided we’d go snowboarding. We’re living in the Dolomites for the season, so we might as well make use of the fact that we’re living in the mountains. However, as two days ago my feeling on the slopes was absolutely shitty I got worried about today’s snowboarding session.
I started putting on my clothes anyway, you know, the extra warm leggings, the snowboarding pants, the warm sweater and then I looked for the right socks. This already made me feel nervous. Should I really do this today? Am I not going to create a stupid negative memory if today is going to be completely worthless on the slopes?
Ah damn it, I’ll go try anyway. Then while parking my car at the ski lift I do change my mind and drive myself back home again. Why? Because I could.
When I come back home I realize that it really doesn’t matter if I don’t want to go up on the slopes today. If I don’t feel like it today, then so be it. Even while I have a season pass and something in the back of my head is telling me that every single day I should take advantage of having this piece of luxury. It doesn’t matter if I decide that right now I prefer to waste the whole afternoon on my laptop if I have nowhere to go anyway. As long as I fulfill my true responsibilities, like my job and making life nice with my boyfriend, then I can actually do whatever the heck I want.
As a friend of my said, I have a life plenty of other people would like to trade with. I am together with the love of my life and our surroundings change basically every six months. So it doesn’t get dull. I get to travel and live at new places, I am healthy, meet a lot of people, do things I enjoy and so on.
I think that sometimes I can worry about things that seem the size of an elephant but appear to be more like a mosquito when I sit down and relax. Maybe it’s just me, but I am curious if you also experience this.
Do you ever worry about things and afterwards think “what on earth am I stressing about? Everything is alright!” Do you perhaps feel positive awareness?
About Renate Rigters
Ever since I left my home country I felt at home at any other place I went to. I enjoy getting to know more cultures by talking to strangers and hearing their philosophy about life. Speaking with gestures when you can not find a shared language, finding places only the locals go to and learn about their customs and values. Hanging out with local people makes me happy. The experience of every new place is a step out of your comfort zone where I like to wander around until it feels like a second home.
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